#142 5 Signs You Struggle With Receiving
In today's episode, we're talking all about receiving. For many of us, being the giver in our relationships is our comfort zone - which can lead to imbalances, unmet needs, and resentment. But while we may bemoan the lack of reciprocity in our relationships, there is a vulnerability to receiving that many of us are uncomfortable with. We cover :the tendency to consistently end up in imbalanced relationships difficulty directing asking for what you want or need feeling guilty or burden...
In today's episode, we're talking all about receiving. For many of us, being the giver in our relationships is our comfort zone - which can lead to imbalances, unmet needs, and resentment. But while we may bemoan the lack of reciprocity in our relationships, there is a vulnerability to receiving that many of us are uncomfortable with.
We cover:
The tendency to consistently end up in imbalanced relationships
Difficulty directing asking for what you want or need
Feeling guilty or burdensome when people support or accommodate you
Struggling to accept compliments or praise
Discomfort with being the centre of attention
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Struggling with Receiving? Here Are 5 Signs You Might Be Missing
In relationships, whether romantic or platonic, it's not uncommon to find oneself caught in a pattern of giving without receiving in return. This dynamic can often go unnoticed until it leads to feelings of imbalance and resentment. Recognising if you struggle with receiving is the first step towards fostering healthier, more reciprocal relationships. Here are five signs that might indicate you have difficulties in this area.
Consistently Imbalanced Relationships
A clear indication that you may struggle with receiving is if you find yourself consistently in relationships that feel one-sided. This could be in friendships, familial relationships, or romantic partnerships. If you often feel that you’re the one always giving, accommodating, and supporting while others take without reciprocating, it could be a sign. Such patterns might be ingrained, making it feel natural to be the giver, but it’s essential to realise that healthy relationships involve mutual support and giving.
This dynamic might lead you to mistakenly believe that others are taking advantage of you. However, it’s worth reflecting on how you might be contributing to this imbalance. Are you setting boundaries? Are you communicating your needs? Often, we play a role in perpetuating these patterns by not asserting ourselves or by avoiding the vulnerability involved in receiving.
Reluctance to Ask for Support
Another sign is a real difficulty in directly asking for what you need. Whether it’s emotional support, practical help, or something else entirely, if you find yourself hesitant to make such requests, you might have an issue with receiving. The discomfort might stem from fears of being a burden, facing rejection, or believing that others might resent you for voicing your needs.
You might prefer to wait until someone offers help and feel more comfortable if they've initiated it. Even then, you might go through several rounds of assuring them that you’re fine and that it’s no big deal before eventually conceding to their offer. This hesitance can often be tied to deeper insecurities about your worthiness and whether you deserve to have your needs met.
Guilt When Accommodated
Feeling guilty when someone supports or accommodates you is another hallmark of struggling with receiving. Despite being willing and even eager to help others, you might feel uncomfortable when the roles are reversed. Think about instances where someone has gone out of their way for you. Do you immediately feel the need to minimise the inconvenience or express how unnecessary their help is, even when you appreciate it?
This guilt might be accompanied by inner dialogues questioning your worthiness or worrying about potential negative consequences. It’s crucial to recognise that such feelings are often unfounded and more a reflection of your internal struggles than the reality of the situation.
Deflecting Compliments
If you're quick to deflect or downplay compliments, this too signals a discomfort with receiving. When someone praises you, do you find yourself immediately redirecting the compliment back to them or minimising it by downplaying your efforts? For example, instead of saying "thank you," you might respond with "oh, this old thing?" or "I just got lucky."
Accepting compliments can feel like a spotlight is on you, making the experience feel almost exposed and vulnerable. Learning to simply say "thank you" without qualification is a powerful step towards becoming more comfortable with receiving.
Discomfort with Being the Centre of Attention
Feeling uneasy when you are the focus of attention, such as during a birthday celebration or any event centred around you, can also be a sign. While not everyone enjoys being the centre of attention due to personality differences, extreme discomfort might point to underlying issues with receiving.
This discomfort often stems from an inability to believe that people genuinely want to celebrate or support you. It could be linked to a fear of seeming needy or the deep-seated belief that you must be self-sufficient to be valued and loved.
Embracing the Vulnerability of Receiving
Addressing and overcoming these signs involves delving into the roots of these feelings and challenging the narratives that fuel them. It requires embracing the inherent vulnerability of receiving. This might mean starting small, such as expressing your preferences when someone asks for your opinion, or practising gratitude when receiving assistance or compliments.
Understand that receiving is not a sign of weakness or neediness. It is part of the natural ebb and flow of healthy relationships. By recognising and addressing your struggles with receiving, you open the door to more balanced, fulfilling relationships where giving and receiving are reciprocally rewarding.
Accept that feeling discomfort is part of the growth process. Encourage yourself to sit with this discomfort rather than retreating from it. The more you allow yourself to receive, the more you will see the capacity for generosity and support in others, thus creating a more balanced and enriching relational experience.
Questions for Discussion & Reflection
Do you find yourself frequently feeling imbalanced in your relationships, often giving more than you receive? How does this dynamic impact your sense of satisfaction within these relationships?
How comfortable are you with directly asking for support or expressing your needs to others? What fears or anxieties arise for you in these situations?
Reflect on a time when someone went out of their way to support you. Did you feel guilty or undeserving of their efforts? What beliefs or past experiences contribute to these feelings?
When you receive compliments, do you tend to deflect, downplay, or dismiss them? Why do you think it's challenging for you to simply accept praise?
How do you feel about being the centre of attention or being celebrated by others? What messages about worthiness and vulnerability surface for you in these moments?
Consider the narrative you've constructed about being "low maintenance" or "easy." How does this self-perception affect your willingness to let others take care of you?
What stories do you tell yourself about your worthiness to receive love and support? How do these stories influence your behaviour and interactions in relationships?
How might your fear of being a burden or your concern about others' resentment impact your ability to receive care and support?
Reflect on a recent interaction where you allowed someone to give to you without resisting or minimizing their efforts. How did it feel to accept their support fully?
Identify one small way you can practice receiving this week, whether it's accepting a compliment graciously or allowing someone to do something kind for you. How can this practice contribute to recalibrating the balance in your relationships?
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Episode Transcript
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Hey, everybody. Welcome back to another episode of On Attachment. In today's episode, we're talking all about receiving, specifically 5 signs that you struggle with receiving in your relationships. So receiving is probably not something that you've turned your mind to very consciously.
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I think for a lot of us, it's really not. And yet I think for so many people, it can be a real struggle and it can. Keep us stuck in relationships that are really imbalanced, not really knowing why or what to do about it. And as we'll talk about, I think we can often blame the other person for the fact that maybe our needs are not being met or we're not feeling We're responsible in part for we're responsible in part for the creation and perpetuation of a dynamic that feels imbalanced or asymmetrical in terms of contribution or who's being accommodated. Because for a lot of us, as much as we can bemoan the fact that it's always all about the other person, receiving is actually really vulnerable and can be really challenging if that's not the seat that you have traditionally sat in, in your relationships. So let me talking a little bit about that today, and sharing some signs that you might struggle with this. As I think many of you will, I certainly have in the past and still really have to consciously open myself to receiving and drop or resist any feelings of guilt or discomfort that might come with being accommodated rather than being the one who's always accommodating others. Okay. So that's what we're going to be talking about today.
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So as I alluded to in the introduction, there's this sense of, I'm always the giver and other people are always taking from me or I'm accommodating them. I am working around their needs and preferences And it's never me who's taking up that space. It's never me who is the one being accommodated, the one whose preferences are being catered to. It feels like I'm always in the support role rather than the one being supported. Now, you might be hearing that and going, why is that my fault, right? Why should I be held responsible for the fact that people are taking advantage of me or other stories like that? And as always, it's not about fault. And I hope that those of you who've been following my work for a while know that I'm not talking in terms of fault and blame. And I think that we really have to try and look beyond that and go, okay, what's actually going on here? And as always, I think that these dynamics, where it takes 2 to tango and they reinforce each other. And so we're not looking at blame so much as in what ways am I contributing to the perpetuation of the status quo here? And I think that when we are consistently winding up in relationships that have a similar look and feel to them in terms of that kind of dynamic of over giving and imbalance and feeling maybe resentful about that.
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That's a really good sign that we are part of that, that we are contributing in some way And that that's not just about the other person. I think when you've got the same dynamic over and over again, it becomes a little dishonest maybe to just point the finger at the other person and go, oh, I don't know why I always end up with people who take advantage of me. So the first line that you might struggle with receiving, and I suppose the other side of that coin is that, you know, you maybe give too much is that you always end up in relationships that look like that. Okay. The next sign that you struggle with receiving is that you rarely, if ever, directly ask for what you need or ask for support, ask for someone to do something for you. That's something that you really struggle to directly request. And if someone offers, so you're probably much more comfortable with someone offering that to you rather than you having to assert it. And you might find that if someone does offer, you go through a few rounds of pushing back and saying, no, I'm fine.
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Don't worry about it. It's really not that big a deal. And other things like that before you eventually might accept whatever it is that they're offering you. So it's only in those circumstances that you can feel okay with someone doing something for you, even if you really want to and you wish you could ask them directly. It might just feel too vulnerable, whether that's because you're worrying that you're a burden, or that they're going to resent doing something for you, or you fear rejection, you fear what would happen if they said, No, I'm not going to do that for you. Whatever it might be, and it might be all of those or a combination of them, that you're much more comfortable with someone going out of their way or giving something to you or taking care of you, supporting you. However, it looks in a given set of circumstances. If they've initiated it, they've offered it, they've insisted against your pushback.
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And then finally, you can go, okay, great, thanks. It's like you have confirmation of the fact that they really do wanna do it and they're really happy to, and it's really not a big deal. That kind of alleviates some of your fears or concerns around them going out of their way, which feels uncomfortable and maybe you feel, you know, unworthy or undeserving of that, or you worry, you know, what they're going to really be thinking as a result of having to accommodate you, because that's not a position that you're accustomed to being in. Okay. The next sign that you struggle with receiving is related to the previous that you feel guilty when people go out of their way to support or accommodate you. It feels like you've done something wrong or you're anticipating some sort of adverse consequence. And this is even when you wouldn't think twice about doing that for them. Right.
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If the circumstances were flipped, if you were in the giving role, there's no way that you would be harboring any resentment or concern about it, or you'd be really comfortable with doing that for them as an act of love, but you really struggle to believe that the same could be true in the other direction. And so you feel guilt or anxiety around receiving when someone is going out of their way to accommodate you. So maybe that's, they've offered to pick you up from the airport at an inconvenient time of day or go out of their way to pick something up at the shops for you. Maybe you've said, oh, don't worry. Only if it's not too hard. Only if it's not too much trouble, all of those things. And then you feel a bit uncomfortable if someone has had to go out of their way to do it. And I think the common thread underneath that is really struggling to believe that you are worthy of other people's efforts, right? That it's all well and good for you to go to those links to show them love and care and support, but you struggle to believe that they love and care and want to support you to the same degree.
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So maybe you fear that they're not going to be happy with you, or they're going to punish you in some way as a result of having to take care of you or accommodate you? And so I think there is a little thread there around worthiness and deservingness. Can I really take in someone's love or do I put a ceiling on their expression of love and care for me? Because I don't really believe that it's there or that it's possible. I don't want to be disappointed. So I sort of tell myself and tell them that I don't need it or want it, that I'm fine to take care of myself, that I'm low maintenance, all of these things, when really it's just that I struggle with receiving it. Okay. The next sign that you struggle with receiving is that you are quick to deflect or minimize compliments, or maybe you very quickly push it back onto the other person. So for example, if someone says, you look really nice today, you might say, oh, really? I got ready in 5 minutes. And this is just an old sweater of mine and whatever else you downplay it.
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You struggle to just take it in and go, thank you. I really appreciate that full stop. Right. Or maybe you push back onto them and go, oh, thank you. Look amazing. Don't talk about me. Look at you. Right? And having the spotlight on you and just taking in someone's praise, someone's compliment feels really, you've got almost naked and vulnerable, in a way that is really uncomfortable for you.
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So noticing that, do you struggle to just take the compliment? Someone says, oh, you, you did an amazing job at something. You might find other ways to detract from your own efforts or your own successes. Because again, you worry that there's going to be some sort of consequence attached to just asking in it and just, you know, gratefully accepting whatever someone's offering to you by way of compliment or praise. And the last sign that you struggle with receiving is you feel really uncomfortable being the center of attention. So for example, if you throw a birthday party, you might really feel very uncomfortable with the idea of people coming to celebrate you and it all being about you. I can very much relate to this. I still struggle with it. Don't really like that at all.
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And while I think there are personality differences around this, and it's not to say that we all have to become comfortable with being the center of attention and having a surprise party with a 100 people phone in our honor. I think for some of us, it's just never gonna be comfortable and maybe that's okay. It is something to reflect on, do I resist being loved and letting people love me and letting people show up for me and celebrating me. What is it about that that feels so uncomfortable? Do I struggle to believe that people will, or people want to, And where does that come from within me? What might it be like to really allow myself to receive people's celebration or love of me. And so reflecting on that, I think oftentimes we will be pleasantly surprised by how much people do want to show up for us. And if we can allow ourselves to, to let that happen and to take it all in, it can be quite eye opening and maybe vulnerable, but ultimately beautifully reinforcing of how much we are loved and cared for and supported by the people in our lives. And it might go some of the way in dismantling those stories that we have around people not wanting to do that for us. I think whether it's this or any number of other things in our relationships, it's amazing how we're so convinced that our story is the truth, whether that's people don't care about me, people don't show up for me, but we actually never run the experiment because we don't want to expose ourselves to the vulnerability or the possibility of that being true.
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And so we deprive others of the opportunity to show up for us. We deprive others of the opportunity to meet our needs or whatever it might be, because we've already convinced ourselves that they won't or they can't. And so it feels less vulnerable to just shut ourselves off rather than open ourselves to that possibility and be pleasantly surprised. So that was 5 signs that you struggle with receiving. I'll quickly recap those. The first was you consistently wind up in these imbalanced or asymmetrical relationships that feel like you're the one always giving and they're the one always taking, and it's never about you. 2nd was you rarely, if ever, directly ask for support or ask for what you need, you only reluctantly accept it if someone else initiates it. And even then you probably push back a bit.
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The third was you feel really guilty and like a burden. If someone goes out of their way to support or accommodate you, even in circumstances where you wouldn't think twice about doing that for them. The 4th was you're quick to deflect or downplay or minimize compliments or other kind words that people offer to you. And the 5th one was you feel really uncomfortable being the center of attention or being, you know, celebrated in some way. So if you relate to some or all of those, as I suspect many of you will, I certainly do. The I suppose the work for you is to reflect on where that comes from to notice what is this discomfort really about? I mentioned a few possible sources and you may relate to a number of these, that unworthiness, that feeling of being undeserving, the vulnerability of receiving, worrying that someone's going to resent you or that they're going to be upset at having to accommodate you feeling like a burden and feeling like you have to be easy or low maintenance in order to be lovable. All of these things, which we might not necessarily associate with receiving. As I said in the introduction, it's not something that we talk about all that much or many of us kind of really conscious of.
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But I think a lot of those underlying themes and wounds or patterns in our relationships can really show up here and affect the overall climate or environment of our relationships. And I think that when we do wind up in these patterns of where we're struggling to receive and our relationships reflect that imbalance. Invariably, we end up harboring some resentment and feeling uncared for and neglected. And as I said, it's easy to blame the other person when maybe there's a little bit more ball in our court, so to speak. There's a little bit more that we could be doing to recalibrate that imbalance rather than just blaming the other person and feeling sorry for ourselves or feeling abandoned or neglected or whatever it might be. So, there's lots to do there. I mean, there are lots of ways that you can practice receiving and it will be a practice, Or If someone says, what do you feel like for dinner? Rather than saying, I don't mind whatever you want, you might say, I feel like this and asking them to cook you something that maybe isn't the easiest or the simplest option and not feeling guilty about that. Or just noticing if you feel guilty, but not quickly walking back from the edge there.
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Just actually allowing yourself to linger in the discomfort of the edge of your comfort zone, because that is really where the growth happens when we can let ourselves sit there and go, oh, okay, the whole world didn't come crumbling down. My relationship didn't end. They didn't reject me. They didn't roll their eyes and tell me that I was a pain in the ass or whatever doomsday catastrophic scenario that we are consciously or subconsciously fearing will come to pass as a result of taking up a bit more space. I think it's always good to run those little experiments. And as I said, be pleasantly surprised by what we might find. I really hope that you've found something of interest in today's episode that it's been helpful for you. And as always, I'm so grateful for your support. And I look forward to seeing you again next week. Thanks guys.
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Thanks for joining me for this episode of On Attachment. If you wanna go deeper on all things attachment, love, and relationships, you can find me on Instagram @stephanie__rigg or at stephanierigg.com. And if you enjoyed this episode, I'd be so grateful if you could leave a review and a 5 star rating. It really does help so much. Thanks again for being here, and I hope to see you again soon.
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Attachment, relationships, receiving in relationships, relationship imbalance, giving and receiving, relationship coach, insecurity in relationships, healthy relationships, thriving relationships, vulnerability in relationships, accommodating others, feeling neglected, overgiving, reciprocity in relationships, asking for support, feeling guilty in relationships, deservingness, receiving love, feeling like a burden, relationship dynamics, seeking validation, emotional support, relationship patterns, self-worth, feeling unworthy, deflecting compliments, being the center of attention, celebrating oneself, feeling undeserving, relationship growth.
#141 "Is it wrong to hope my partner will change?"
In today's episode, I'm sharing some thoughts on the listener question of "Is it wrong to hope my partner will change?" Wanting to change a partner is something most of us will relate to in one form or another, but it's essential that we understand where this urge is coming from and what it's trying to tell us about ourselves, our partner, and the relationship. Some of the things we cover:wanting to change little things vs big thingshow anxious and avoidant attached people differ in want...
In today's episode, I'm sharing some thoughts on the listener question of "Is it wrong to hope my partner will change?" Wanting to change a partner is something most of us will relate to in one form or another, but it's essential that we understand where this urge is coming from and what it's trying to tell us about ourselves, our partner, and the relationship.
Some of the things we cover:
Wanting to change little things vs big things
How anxious and avoidant attached people differ in wanting to change their partner
Changes that relate to core relationship needs
My advice when you're hoping they'll change without any signs that they want to
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Is it Wrong to Hope My Partner Will Change?
Many people have, at some point in their relationships, wished that their partner would change in some way. Whether it’s wishing they would be more affectionate, communicate better, or even change trivial habits, it’s a common thought. But is it wrong to have these thoughts and desires? Let’s delve into this complex topic and consider some nuanced perspectives.
Understanding the Desire for Change
It’s entirely human to harbour feelings of wishing for change in a partner. Recognising this can alleviate some of the guilt or shame associated with these thoughts. Everyone has moments of frustration or dissatisfaction in a relationship, and at times, it’s easy to believe that if a partner just altered a specific behaviour or trait, things would be perfect. These thoughts are normal, yet it’s crucial to reflect on them rather than act impulsively.
Self-Reflection: Is It My Issue or Theirs?
One primary aspect to consider is how much of the desire for your partner to change stems from your own issues. This self-inquiry involves questioning whether the traits that bother you are minor quirks or fundamental behaviours deeply affecting the relationship. Often, criticisms of a partner may actually mirror unresolved issues within ourselves. For instance, wanting a partner to adopt your way of doing things might highlight a need to control or even deeper insecurities.
Differentiating Between Minor and Major Changes
Not all desired changes in a partner are created equal. Discerning whether the things you wish to change are small annoyances or significant issues is vital. Minor quirks, such as how a partner dresses or eats, often shouldn’t hold substantial weight in the relationship’s overall happiness. However, major issues, like a partner’s unwillingness to communicate or recurring destructive behaviours, merit more serious attention. Asking yourself whether these changes impact core relationship needs or fundamental compatibility can provide clarity.
Evolving Perspectives Over Time
It’s also useful to examine whether these frustrations and desires for change have always been present or if they are recent developments. Initial attractions to certain traits can evolve into frustrations as relationships progress. Traits you might have found endearing initially, such as spontaneity or passion, could later feel like unpredictability or relentlessness. Understanding this shift can help you determine whether the change in perception is rooted in other underlying issues within the relationship or personal growth.
Are You Seeking Change for Connection or Distance?
Our attachment styles often influence how we perceive the need for a partner to change. Those with anxious attachment may want changes to feel more secure and solidify the relationship, seeing it as a solution to all problems. Conversely, those with avoidant tendencies might use the desire for change as a distancing tactic, proving that incompatibility exists. Recognising which attachment style may be driving these feelings can help you address the root cause more effectively.
Impact on Core Relationship Needs
When considering changes, it’s vital to differentiate between personal preferences and fundamental relationship needs. Some aspects, such as a partner's refusal to engage in meaningful dialogue or perpetual irresponsibility, could genuinely be deal breakers. Reflecting on whether you could maintain a fulfilling relationship if these aspects remain unchanged is paramount. If the inability to change would significantly impact your happiness or well-being, it’s a significant point to consider.
Realistic Expectations and Willingness to Change
It's important to establish whether there has been any indication of a partner's willingness or ability to change. True and lasting change often needs to originate from within the individual being asked to change. If a partner is only making superficial changes to appease demands, it may not result in long-term satisfaction for either party. Genuine, intrinsic motivation to improve or adapt certain behaviours is necessary for meaningful change.
Accepting or Moving On
Ultimately, evaluating whether you can accept your partner as they are is crucial. Holding on to unrealistic expectations for change can lead to perpetual dissatisfaction and resentment. If fundamental needs are unmet and there is no mutual willingness to work towards meaningful change, it might be time to reassess the relationship’s viability. Acceptance of a partner’s true self, along with honest communication about non-negotiables, is key to a healthy relationship dynamic.
Embracing Humility and Self-Growth
Embarking on this self-reflective journey is an opportunity for personal growth. Discovering more about what drives your desires for change can lead to a deeper understanding of your own needs and insecurities. This humility and self-awareness can enrich not just your romantic relationships but all interpersonal connections.
By maintaining a balanced perspective on the desire for change in a partner, you can foster a more compassionate and realistic approach to relationships. Whether it leads to a deeper connection with your partner or a realisation that it’s time to move on, this exploration can ultimately guide you towards more fulfilling and authentic relationships.
Questions for Discussion & Reflection
Do you find yourself frequently wishing your partner would change certain aspects of their behaviour? If so, what are these aspects and why do they bother you?
Reflect on whether these desired changes in your partner are fundamental traits or more superficial quirks. What does this reveal about your expectations and tolerance within the relationship?
How do you differentiate between constructive feedback and being overly critical of your partner? What impact do you think your approach has on the relationship?
Consider a time when you felt frustrated with your partner's behaviour. Can you identify any underlying unmet needs or insecurities within yourself that may have contributed to this frustration?
Think about the aspects of your partner that initially attracted you to them. Have these traits changed over time in your perception? What might this shift indicate about your evolving needs and expectations?
In what ways do you take responsibility for your own happiness and well-being, independently of your partner? How could this practice help ease relationship tensions?
Ponder the question: If the things you wish would change about your partner never did, could you find peace and contentment in the relationship as it is? Why or why not?
How do you handle situations where there is a fundamental disparity between your core relationship needs and your partner's behaviour? What strategies could help bridge this gap?
Reflect on any instances where you've projected your unhappiness or dissatisfaction onto your partner. What steps can you take to address these feelings within yourself before placing them on the relationship?
How do you and your partner communicate about needed changes and growth within the relationship? What improvements could be made to foster a more supportive and understanding dialogue?
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Episode Transcript
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Hey, everybody. Welcome back to another episode of On Attachment. In today's episode, I am answering the listener question of, is it wrong to want my partner to change? I think that this is a predicament that a lot of us will relate to to varying degrees at different points in life and in relationships. Is that niggling voice in your head that starts to feel really critical of your partner, maybe in a general sense, or specific things that they do. But having that sense of if they just change this thing, then everything would be different, or then I'd be more attracted to them, or then all my needs would be met and we wouldn't be fighting or we wouldn't be disconnected or whatever it might be. But this feeling that the problems in the relationship or the way that you're feeling towards them originate with them and, you know, needing them to change is kind of the roadblock standing in the way of your happiness or your satisfaction, your peace, whatever it might be. So I think it's a feeling that a lot of us will relate to. And as always, I think that it's important to inquire and get curious with, you know, how much of this is my stuff? How much of this is telling me something about the relationship that needs my attention? Is there anything there for my partner to action and sifting through that in a way that really allows us to have a bit more clarity rather than just following those voices and those stories in our head that can lead us to, you know, not very nice or constructive behavior within our relationship when we are in that mode of judgment and criticism and maybe even being a bit manipulative, trying to change our partner.
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And I think that as we'll get into sometimes there can be some, you know, egoic drives in there where we're kind of self centered and, whether we realize it or not, they can be an arrogance to wanting our partners to change because often we want them to change to be more like us. So taking responsibility, taking ownership for all of those things and, getting clarity around it, I think is really important because so much of the time, our relationship, our partner, the way we're feeling about those things is just a mirror or is feedback, that's pointing us towards something within us that needs some love and care. So that's what we're going to be talking about today. I'm going to be offering you some thoughts and some guiding questions that might shed some light on that dynamic as it applies to your relationship. Before I dive into that, a super quick reminder that I am offering a 50% off sale on all my master classes and courses on my website. You can use the code, Hey, baby, all one word, to save 50% on those, which is to celebrate the birth of my baby, which was 1 month ago today. Okay. So let's dive into this conversation around wanting to change partner.
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Now, as I often do at the start of an episode, I just want to almost give a bit of a permission slip to be human here. I don't think it's something we have to beat ourselves up over this desire to change a partner. I think it would be dishonest for someone to say that they've never had those thoughts or those urges or those moments of frustration where you just wish that your partner were different in some way that they, you know, acted differently, presented themselves differently, coped with things differently. And so I think that, you know, giving ourselves the grace and cutting ourselves some slack for being human in having those thoughts and urges is important. Always wanting to be compassionate. That, of course, doesn't give us permission slip to act on those impulses or those urges. And I think that's where we really need to take responsibility and go, okay. How am I acting out here? Am I being critical? Am I being nitpicky? And what kind of culture is that creating in my relationship? Is it really a culture that is inspiring of growth and change, in, you know, a positive direction? Or is it creating a culture of disconnection, and, you know, disapproving judgment? All of those things, which, you know, if you have ever been on the receiving end of, tends not to be terribly inspiring and, you know, it leads to more disconnection.
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So as I said, I'm going to offer you some questions to get a bit more clarity around this wanting to change your partner, because I think that this can arise in a lot of different circumstances. You know, it might just be feeling almost like the ick towards your partner, which some people relate to. I think almost people with more avoidant tendencies tend to experience more of that ick than people with anxious tendencies. I think that people who have more anxious attachment tend to wanna change their partner in ways that they see as solidifying the relationship. So if there's any sense that the relationship disconnected in some way or the relationship is lacking, It's really easy to pin that on what's wrong with the partner and tell yourself the story that if they were different, then everything would be solved. And so changing your partner becomes, you know, the solution to all of your problems. Whereas, I think that, for more avoidant folks, changing your partner or being critical of your partner, is more of a distancing strategy. It can feel like if they were different, you know, we'd be a better fit.
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And the fact that they are like that, and I feel this sense of resistance or criticism or judgment towards them is proof that we're not meant to be together. So we can see that what starts as a similar seed kind of grows in 2 different directions as is often the case, with these, you know, different attachment patterns and styles. So the first question that I wanna put to you around, you know, this wanting your partner to change is are the things that you're wanting to change about your partner, little things or big things? So is it, you know, little quirks that they have, you know, the way that they dress or the way that they eat or the music that they listen to, you know, things that are kind of peripheral to who they are, but, you know, nonetheless make up parts of them. Are those things irking you or is it big things like, you know, fundamental to their relational dynamic? Is it that they refuse to talk about relationship issues or, you struggle to have any sort of constructive as they're showing up in their relationship or just as themselves, that you are taking issue with and you're wanting them to change. So I think, you know, naturally, if it's the little things that are bothering you, I think we have to, I don't know, query how important those things really are. And I think that when we fixate on those little things, it's usually pointing us to something within us, a perfectionism or some other rigidity or desire to control, or perhaps an unmet need there. And we're using those little things as almost a scapegoat for, you know, a way to validate how we're feeling in a deeper sense. So, big things or little things, then we maybe need to go to the next step, which is, have I always been bothered by these things or is it a recent development? So if you've always been bothered by these things, I think that's a very different scenario and a much less common one than if it's a recent development.
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And if it's more recent that you've started to have this sense of frustration or, you know, resistance, criticism, judgment, disapproval of your partner, then reflect on what else is going on. What's the backdrop to this, that might give me more information as to, you know, accompanying unmet needs, things that are going on in the relationship that are leading me to project this onto my partner, and wanting them to change. You know, what else accompanies this? Because I think that much of the time, what you'll find is the things that you end up being frustrated about in your you weren't bothered by initially. You know, I often give the example, you know, you might be really attracted to someone's spontaneity, but 6 months or a year into the relationship, you're pulling your hair out with frustration at the fact that they can't stick to a plan. You might be really attracted to someone's passion and that they have really strong opinions and they're really engaged. But down the track, you might find it frustrating that they can't just let anything go, or they always have to have the last word or some other expression of that trait. You might be really attracted to someone's self discipline and really admire that about them only to subsequently become frustrated with the fact that they're too uptight and rigid and you wish that they'd just lighten up. So getting curious around, like, have I just changed the way that I relate to aspects of them that were always there and maybe even aspects of them that I once really appreciated? Or, you know, is there something else here? And I think as a bit of a hint, oftentimes, we're attracted to someone else, expressing a trait that we don't have or that we've suppressed or judged within ourselves.
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So you might really admire someone's ability to be the center of attention and to be really confident in social settings because that's not something that comes naturally to you. And it's maybe something that you really wish you could embody. But while that's attractive to you in the first place, in the first instance, when you meet them, down the track, you might notice the same parts of you that suppress that or a critical of that within yourself. Start to you know, arc up and, and express those same criticisms towards them. And so you wanna suppress that in them the same way that you suppress it within yourself. So I think that getting curious around like, oh, how, where is this come from this sense of criticism that I feel towards my partner, and wanting them to change? Am I wanting them to just be more like me? And is that really what I want? Because as much as we can tell ourselves the story that, if they were more like me, then everything would be easier. You'd probably also experience a loss of attraction if that were the case, because much of the time it really is our differences, that allow us to complement each other and to work really well as a team and to maintain that sense of separateness that can fuel attraction in a relationship, as much as particularly if you're more anxious, the desire to merge and enmesh into one unit can really be there. And that can be almost like a form of safety that if we're just kind of melded into 1, then we're inseparable.
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And that makes me feel safer. It tends to not actually be conducive to a really healthy, thriving relationship. Okay. The next question that I wanna offer you is, do the things that I want to change or that I'm hoping will change in my partner relate to my core relationship needs? And relatedly, if things never changed in that respect, could I make my peace with that or would that be a deal breaker? Now, this is obviously a big question, and we're getting more into the territory here of really foundational stuff rather than, you know, it annoys me the way that they do their hair or don't do their hair or something trivial. You know, is there something really fundamental to the relationship here that I'm hoping will change, that goes to my ability to be happy in this place, in my life with them. Is that what I'm hoping will change? And I think this can get a bit murky and challenging, because so many of us, you know, I've been guilty of this absolutely persistent relationships where there is this kind of abstract hope of something changing, things are gonna get better, you know, next month, next year. And, you know, in the meantime, we persist in dynamics that are really dissatisfying. And there's just like a real lack of connection, a lack of joy.
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You know, there's really stuff missing there. And I think oftentimes, even though we make it out to be very complicated, most of the time, you know, deep down when there's something that's not right about the relationship, when there's something missing. And that's not always to say that you need to walk away at that point, but where the relationship is really fundamentally not meeting your needs and it kind of never has, there's never been a sense that it's been right, but you've just always been pushing and pushing and telling yourself that like, you know, at some abstract future point, everything's going to be different. Notwithstanding the fact that there's kind of no evidence pointing to that ever coming to fruition. I think that's when we have to start getting honest about how healthy or constructive it is for us to be holding on to this, you know, hope that our partner is going to change when there's really nothing pointing to that actually happening. When that change is related to something that's pretty foundational to our sense of, you know, joy, peace, well-being. I think it's also important to say there, again, it kind of relates to what I was speaking about earlier. We can often project things onto our partner and make it their responsibility to make us happy, and tell ourselves that, you know, when they change these things, then I will be happy.
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And again, I think that, you know, if you've not historically been great at taking care of yourself at, you know, living a vibrant life without a partner being that source of vibrancy for you, then it's really easy to pin that on them and, and blame your lack of vitality or lack of joy or lack of peace, on what might be missing in the relationship. So it's always this really delicate balancing act, and it's such a nuanced conversation of what is really something that we want our relationship to be giving us in terms of kind of life force, versus what we need to be sourcing for ourselves and then allowing our relationships to be, you know, a beautiful addition to that rather than the source of it. And again, I think there's no clear cut answer here. And I'm probably not speaking to, you know, people who are on the edge there. It's probably more situations like, you know, a relationship that I was in, where I was really fundamentally not happy. My needs are not being met. The relationship was just not what I wanted. And yet there was some part of me that thought that, you know, it was going to get better, even though it just wasn't.
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And I was expecting that to come from my partner changing, you know, kind of magically becoming someone that he wasn't. And, you know, that was a recipe for me staying stuck there for a really long time. So I think that asking yourself that question of if things never changed in these material respects, and I'm hoping they will, would that be okay Or would that be a deal breaker if you told me in 5 years time that this part of your relationship, this aspect, this conflicts that you keep having on repeat, is still going to be there or, you know, your partner is still going to be behaving in this way that you find to be really problematic. You know, if that was still the case, then would that be a deal breaker for you? And I think if the answer is yes, it would be a deal breaker for me, then you have to ask the question of, well, has my partner indicated any willingness to work on this thing that, you know, we can recognize is causing an issue in our relationship. And again, if the answer is no, then we have to do a bit of a reality check on, well, am I just, you know, hoping that something's going to change when there's no reason that it would? You know, if days are going by and weeks months are going by, nothing's changing because nothing's being done. And it's something that's really fundamentally important to me. And I've made that clear to my partner. If there's no movement towards change that's originating with them.
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And I really do believe that as much as we can, you know, express a desire or a need in a relationship, if it's asking someone to make changes within themselves, that's got to come from them in the sense that they've got to have some intrinsic motivational desire to make that change in order for it to stick in any substantive, meaningful, long term way. If it's just you telling someone they have to do something and they are reluctantly agreeing in order to, you know, get you to stop nagging them or just to restore some sort of peace. But they don't actually deeply agree or they don't want that, I can all but guarantee you that that's not gonna be the solution. Or, you know, if they don't understand what the problem actually is and they're just kind of agreeing with you, then there's probably not gonna be the change that you're looking for, and there's a good chance that you'll just keep spinning around in those cycles. So really reflecting if it is something that's non negotiable, if it's big, and it's, you know, a deal breaker for you potentially, if it weren't to change, then has there been any indication from your partner that they're actually, you know, willing, able to make those changes. And, you know, what's the plan, what action are they taking and, you know, what have they done to show to you that, they really get it and it's really important to them as well, independent from it just being something that you've told them they have to do as some sort of ultimatum or condition of being in the relationship. Because as I said, those things tend not to stick. So that was a lot.
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I hope that you've managed to follow that web of questions and different permutations of this dynamic of changing a partner. As I said, in the introduction, there's sort of different bits there and different scenarios that that speaks to whether it's just the nitpicky things that might point us, you know, to something within ourselves that needs our attention, maybe where you're projecting onto our partner because we're feeling a bit disconnected from ourselves, from our own vitality, and we're making that about them. We're kind of blaming them for the way that we're feeling, in which case that's really good information and something that we can work with. If it's bigger things, if you're really unhappy in the relationship, kind are kind of deal breakers for you or non negotiables, I should say, in terms of, you know, your willingness to be in the relationship, then I think we have to get really clear around, you know, how realistic that hope is, and whether there's any accompanying action or plan or, or kind of evidence, upon which to be, just stay and tell ourselves a story that things are going to get better. Just stay and tell ourselves a story that things are gonna get better. You know, at some future point, next week, month, once we get past this milestone, then everything will be better. But if there's nothing to actually support that, then I think we do have to get a bit honest with ourselves and, you know, say, can I accept this person as they are? And if I can't, then is this the right relationship for me to be in? And I think that can be a really eye opening, and humbling inquiry to go down. So I hope that this has been helpful as always.
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