#166: Signs an Avoidant Partner is Deactivating & What to Do About It
In today's episode, we’re diving into what avoidant partner deactivation looks like and how you can respond to this experience in a way that protects your emotional wellbeing and prevents further spiralling and disconnection.
We’ll explore the subtle ways avoidant partners create distance—whether emotionally, physically, or in their communication—and how these behaviours stem from their attachment patterns rather than a lack of care or love. Importantly, we’ll talk about what you can do in these moments to maintain connection without pressuring your partner or compromising your own self-worth.
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Recognising Avoidant Partner Deactivation & What To Do About It
In navigating relationships, understanding the dynamics of attachment styles can be incredibly beneficial. One common challenge people face is recognising signs that an avoidant partner is deactivating and knowing how to respond effectively. Avoidant deactivation can be a perplexing pattern, but with awareness, one can approach it with empathy and assertive self-care.
What is Avoidant Deactivation?
Avoidant deactivation refers to behaviours employed by avoidantly attached individuals to create emotional and physical distance. These behaviours are mechanisms used to make themselves feel safe by reducing the perceived threat of intimacy and vulnerability.
Signs of Deactivation
Increased Emotional Distance
When an avoidant partner begins to deactivate, they often become emotionally withdrawn. This can manifest as curt responses, reluctance to share their thoughts and feelings, or a noticeable decrease in the warmth of their communication. Conversations that once flowed naturally may now feel laboured or stilted, making you question the connection between you.
Less Frequent Contact
Alongside emotional withdrawal, there may be a significant reduction in communication frequency. They might take longer to respond to messages or calls and become less proactive in initiating contact. This sudden change can feel startling and induce anxiety in their partner.
Reduced Physical and Verbal Affection
Physical affection may noticeably decrease. Gestures such as holding hands, hugs, or casual touches might be declined or brushed off. Similarly, verbal affirmations of love and care could diminish, making the relational atmosphere feel colder.
Heightened Focus on Independence
Avoidant individuals might start to emphasise their personal space and independence more vigorously. They may engage in more solitary activities or spend more time with friends and hobbies that don't include you, underscoring their need to maintain autonomy.
Reluctance to Discuss the Future
Conversations about future plans might be met with evasion or downplaying. Plans that once seemed exciting and concrete can suddenly be brushed aside, indicating their discomfort with the commitment and expectations.
Increased Criticism and Nitpicking
They might begin to critique small aspects of your behaviour or personality. This nitpicking can serve as a subconscious method to justify their need to withdraw, creating an emotional barrier to protect themselves from vulnerability.
How to Handle Avoidant Deactivation
Dealing with avoidant deactivation strategies varies significantly based on the relationship's stage. If the relationship is newly established, different expectations and boundaries apply compared to a long-term committed relationship.
Don’t Take It Personally: It’s crucial to remember that avoidant deactivation is more about your partner's internal state than about you. Their behaviour stems from their attachment insecurities and is likely to recur in all their relationships. While it’s natural to feel hurt, avoiding the trap of self-blame can be liberating.
Maintain Boundaries and Self-Advocacy: Even as you approach your partner with empathy, it's important to remain assertive about your own needs and boundaries. Clearly communicate what you can and cannot tolerate in a relationship. Avoid falling into the pattern of excessive accommodation, which can lead to self-abandonment. For instance, you might say, “I respect your need for space, but I also need consistent communication to feel secure. Can we find a middle ground that works for both of us?” This stance acknowledges their needs while also honouring your own.
Stay Active and Balanced: Avoid becoming overly fixated on the relationship. Engage in activities that bring you joy and fulfilment, such as spending time with friends, pursuing hobbies, or seeking support from a therapist. This approach not only nurtures your well-being but also prevents the relationship from becoming a singular focus of your life.
Inject Lightness into the Relationship: While it is essential to address serious issues, try to balance heavy conversations with enjoyable activities. Sharing positive, light-hearted experiences can help maintain a sense of connection and demonstrate the fun and rewarding aspects of the relationship. Suggestions might include a shared hobby, a fun outing, or planning a special meal together.
Navigating a relationship with an avoidantly attached partner can be complex and challenging. Understanding their deactivating strategies and responding with a balance of empathy and assertiveness can foster a healthier dynamic. Remember, it’s not about changing them but about ensuring that each of your core needs are met and respecting both parties' boundaries. Maintaining a focus on self-care and open, calm communication can pave the way for a more balanced and fulfilling relationship.
Questions for Discussion & Reflection
Have you ever noticed your partner, or even yourself, displaying deactivating behaviours in a relationship? What specific actions or patterns did you observe?
How do you typically respond when you sense your partner pulling away or becoming emotionally distant? Do you find yourself trying to control the situation to create a sense of safety?
Reflect on a time when you were able to advocate for your needs in a relationship. How did you communicate your boundaries, and what was the outcome?
Consider the balance between empathy for your partner’s avoidant behaviour and maintaining your own sense of self-worth. How do you navigate this balance in your relationships?
When experiencing anxiety in a relationship, what strategies do you employ to avoid becoming overly fixated? How do you ensure you’re nurturing yourself outside of the relationship?
Have you noticed a tendency to take your partner’s deactivating behaviour personally? In what ways can you reframe these situations to avoid self-blame?
How do you incorporate light-hearted and enjoyable activities into your relationship to balance heavier, emotional conversations? Why do you think this balance is important?
If you’re in the early stages of a relationship and notice avoidant behaviours, how do you decide whether to continue investing in that relationship or to move on? What factors influence your decision?
Reflect on the role of self-trust in navigating relationships with avoidant partners. How does building self-trust affect your interactions and sense of safety within the relationship?
What are your thoughts on the idea that avoidant and anxious attachment styles often activate each other’s insecurities? How have you seen this dynamic play out in your own relationships?
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Episode Transcript
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In today's episode, we are talking about signs that an avoidant partner is deactivating and what to do about it. So to be honest, I usually steer clear of episodes like this to the extent that they feel alarmist or that they are going to feed the part of anxiously attached people that likes to play detective and that spirals into a bit of an anxious panic when they notice that something's wrong. I try not to do too much content that is directed at that, but avoidant deactivation is a very real thing. There's plenty to support the deactivating strategies of avoidant partners as part of that attachment style. And I can ensure anecdotally that if you are more anxious or you have otherwise been in relationship with an avoidant partner, you probably know that, yes, it is very real, this pattern of deactivation. And, you know, much of the time, I think anxiously attached people respond to that kind of in the way that I was just describing and in a way that can probably exacerbate the deactivation and the disconnection rather than help it.
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And so I'm hoping that in today's episode, I can lay out a few signs that an avoidant partner might be deactivating, give a little context for what that means, and what that might signal in terms of what's going on under the hood for them, and most importantly, what you can do about it and how you can support yourself rather than I think the the maybe more clickbaity version of this would be how to get them back or how to stop them from deactivating. I'm not going to focus as much on that because I don't think that that's helpful. Again, I think that feeds the part of you that believes that controlling their behavior is the only way to create safety for yourself. So instead, I'm going to give you some things that you can and should do, both to advocate for your needs and yourself, but also support your well-being if you notice that your partner is pulling away, is deactivating in a way that is very triggering for you, and it almost always will be triggering to be in relationship with someone who is more avoidant, and who is displaying these signs of deactivation. And I think also it's important to say that the anxiety that you feel when the person you're dating or in a relationship with starts to withdraw and pull away, and that's not because you're just too anxious or too sensitive. I think that's a very understandable trigger for anxiety, and I think we can acknowledge that anxiously attached people tend to experience that to extreme degrees and tend to respond from that place of very high anxiety, and as I said, that can make things worse rather than better for everyone involved. So that's what we're going to be talking about today. Before I dive into that, a final reminder about my Sydney workshop, which is happening next weekend.
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It's the most intimate way to work with me, and I'm really looking forward to running that very special program again. So if you are someone who has wondered about working directly with me in close quarters, homecoming is a really beautiful opportunity to do that, and I would love for you to check that out and receive your application. And as I said, there'll be a special super early bird Black Friday discount situation. So long story short, jump on my email list to stay in the loop about all of those things and potentially take advantage of those discounts that I'll be running. Okay. Let's talk about avoidant attachment deactivating strategies. So let's just describe what that is for starters. So much like the anxiously attached person has their activating strategies, the things that they do when their attachment system gets fired up and is feeling stress or insecurity, all of the things that anxiously attached people do to try and close the gap, to try and get closer to their partner, to try and re establish a sense of control.
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The avoidantly attached person has their deactivating strategies, which are essentially in the other direction. They're things that they do to try and create safety for themselves, but that usually means, you know, switching off their attachment system or deactivating from their attachment system, because that's what safety looks and feels like for them. So when an avoidant person starts to deactivate, it's not a sign that they have lost interest, or that they don't have feelings for you anymore, or that you've done something wrong. It's just a sign that their system is perceiving some sort of threat or danger related to the attachment, related to that intimacy, related to the vulnerability. And depending on the individual, some avoidant attached folks will have some sort of awareness around this, others might be totally oblivious, and they might, as far as their conscious awareness goes, just feel like they've lost interest. They might feel like they are not interested in the relationship. They might really convince themselves that actually it's just not the right relationship, whereas at a more subconscious level, it's because these fears are coming up, and all of the things that are hard for them about relationships have kind of tainted their view of the dynamic of you, if you're on the other side of it, and are prompting them to pull away in these ways to create safety for themselves. So it really depends on the individual whether they are, I suppose, aware of the fact that these are deactivating strategies, whether they're aware of their avoidant patterns.
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And as I said, depending on the individual, some will be, some won't be. People with very strong dismissive patterns might be more oblivious to this and are likely not receptive to being told about it. I always get questions from people saying, should you tell an avoidant person that they're avoidant? And I think if you're doing that to try and get them to see the error of their ways, so to speak, that generally won't play very well for you. So all of that to say that if you're on the receiving end of any of these behaviors that I'm about to share, and particularly if you have more anxious attachment, it's really easy to take these very personally, and it probably gets at your worthiness wound in a pretty direct and painful way because, obviously, so much of your sense of safety comes from approval seeking and feeling connected, and this sense of, like, love will conquer all, and you've probably attached very strongly to this person with a lot of hope and optimism, only to have them start to pull away. And most anxious people will then go, What did I do wrong, and how can I fix it? And that can of course trigger a whole cascade of anxious behaviors and so on and so forth. So just at the outset, wanting to emphasize that these patterns will likely follow someone with avoidant attachment through all of their relationships. In other words, it's not just you. These patterns will likely follow them through all of their relationships until they turn towards them and understand what's going on from there, confront their fears around intimacy and engulfment and loss of independence and all of those other things.
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So I I just wanted to emphasize that so that you don't, you know, panic and think that you've done something wrong necessarily if you're in a relationship with someone who's displaying these behaviors. Okay. So with all of that being said, let's talk about what some of these avoidant deactivating strategies might look like. So first and foremost, increased emotional distance or generally being a bit emotionally withdrawn, being shorter in their responses to you, not wanting to talk as much, and when you do talk maybe they give, kind of, closed answers and you feel like you're really having to draw blood from a stone to get them to even tell you how their day was, or something really simple and straightforward. This sense of them kind of closing down and being quite cloistered, and you feeling like you can't really reach them even if they're there, that can be coupled with less frequency of contact. So them maybe being less responsive to texts and calls and other things. Maybe you're feeling like the pace of your communication has changed. Maybe they're harder to get a hold of, and maybe they're not initiating any contact with you.
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If you are earlier in the relationship and you're dating, maybe they've stopped asking when they get to see you, all of those sorts of things. So there's this overall sense of distance that becomes very apparent, and that's both in terms of, like, physical distance and and emotional distance in terms of how connected you feel to them. Another sign of deactivation might be reduced physical or verbal affection, so they might have been more physically affectionate previously, and now they're not. I remember in a previous relationship with an avoidant partner, something as simple as, like, we'd be in the car, and I'd place my hand on his leg, and he'd lift my hand up and put it back on my lap. Right? And inside, I was like, who would do that, and why would he do that, and what's the problem? And he wasn't angry or anything. It wasn't a conflict. It was just such an instinctive pushing away. So things like that, you might be walking and go to hold their hand and they push your hand away, or things like that, you know, that they're wanting to create distance and they are pushing away any sense of connection, even if it's something that's just a really simple gesture of affection, and similarly verbal affection.
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A lot of avoidant people aren't particularly forthcoming with, like, words of affirmation and stuff to begin with, but you might notice that really drop off, and I'll always hear from people, because of course, anxious people tend to be real detectives about, like, differences in texting style, and they might say, you know, he always used to include emojis or like a kiss or an x x at the end of a text, and it's totally stopped doing that, so the tone has become a lot less warm and affectionate in our communication. So that might be another sign of deactivation. Okay. Another sign of deactivation might be that they are increasingly focused on independence, and they might be really emphasizing in the things that they talk about that, oh, they won't be able to do that because they're they've got this thing on that you're not invited to, and they're going away with their friends, or all of a sudden, they're really very clearly communicating to you that they have their own independent life, and they they seem to be very protective about that in quite a direct way, and in a way that doesn't involve you. So it's almost like they're trying to remind you that they are their own person, and that stuff is not yours to be a part of. Now, that might sound really harsh, and it can feel harsh again, I've been on the receiving end of this, but it is just coming from a place of feeling smothered and feeling scared and overwhelmed, and they're almost like staking their claim on their life and their way of doing things and their friends and their work and all of these things that they want to really clearly demarcate so as to avoid those things becoming engulfed or becoming subsumed into the relationship in a way that feels unsafe for them. So you might notice that they are being more direct and overt about trying to protect parts of their independence or parts of their life that are really theirs and not yours jointly. Another sort of related sign of deactivation might be really resisting talking about the future, or suddenly becoming a bit flaky or non committal about future plans, even things that previously you talked about.
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So maybe you talked about, oh, next year we could go on a trip to Europe, and they seemed really excited about that. But now when you bring up, like, hey, maybe we should plan that trip, they start coming up with an excuse, or they're very vague, and they are no longer excited about that. They don't want to talk about it. They sort of brush it off or downplay it or dismiss it. So all of a sudden, they've gone from maybe being more open to talking about the future to now not wanting to engage in any sort of future discussion and really shutting that down, or saying things like, oh, I don't know what my plans will be next year, and things that can seem quite hurtful if previously, you know, you've talked about doing something together. Or similarly, this could be things like moving in together, or other things like moving the relationship forward. They might have previously been open to talking about it, and then all of a sudden they are really cagey about it and non committal, and they don't want to engage in any sort of conversation, and obviously that shift can be quite disconcerting if you're on the other side of it. And a final sign of deactivation, and I should have said at the start, this is far from being an exhaustive list, these are just some examples is a partner being very critical and nitpicky of you, almost seeming like they feel disdain towards you or even, like, disgust.
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And again, that feels really harsh to say, but I think sometimes avoidant partners can feel almost repulsed by their partner. Like, if you've ever heard the term of getting the ick about someone, I think avoidant partners actually get that a lot more than anxious partners do. They suddenly feel turned off by their partner. They kinda latch onto one insignificant thing or a couple of insignificant things and experience this repulsion or loss of attraction, and they can become very critical and very judgmental of their partner. They might start judging you for things that you do that are different to them, again from this place of protecting their way, protecting their view of things, protecting what is normal for them. And they might be a bit critical of your way of doing things or the ways in which you're different. All of those things, again, are just ways to create distance and maybe ways to either pick a fight or to interrupt the connection or even to convince themselves that the relationship is not right, because doing that would shield them from the vulnerability of moving forward with the relationship. So having that sense that all of a sudden your partner's being kind of unfairly critical of you, judgmental, nitpicking, all of those things can be a sign of their attachment system firing up and and those deactivating strategies in full force.
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So that, of course, brings me to how to approach being on the receiving end of all of this. And as always, I think it's important to distinguish between different levels of commitment. So if all of this is happening a month into seeing someone, my advice is not going to be the same as if you've been with someone for 2 years and they're deactivating, because there's simply a different level of commitment, a different level of emotional safety, a different level of expectation, different level of investment. How willing are you to stick around and kind of fight for a relationship? That's going to be a very different inquiry and and reflection if you've gone on 6 dates with someone, versus if you've been, you know, in a relationship and you've lived together, of course. And I should say, these deactivations, these can happen in an established relationship. It's not exclusive to the early stages, although, you'll probably quite reliably encounter it in the early stages of a relationship. So I think if you are in the early stages of a relationship, it's important, and I know this is easier said than done, to try not to panic again. Try not to make it about you and something that you've done. As I said, I can almost assure you that whether it was you or someone else, like, these patterns will follow them. And so it's it's not just you. It's not a problem with you.
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You didn't do something wrong in all likelihood, although it's possible that your anxious attachment has triggered their deactivating strategies and vice versa. That's part of the nature of it is that whether you realize it or not, you pick up on each other's attachment styles, and that tends to activate things within each of you that can feel scary, threatening, overwhelming, stressful, and then that if you don't have the awareness, which is why it's so important to have the awareness, that you can then go into all of your default strategies for creating safety for yourself, which for the anxious person is ramping up, and for the avoidant person is ramping down and pulling away. So remind yourself, it's not personal, this is just what they do. And at the same time, so compassion and taking good care of yourself through that is very important. Not taking it personally, as hard as that is to do. But at the same time, we don't want our compassion for them, and again, this is something that I see anxiously attached people do all the time, is having so much compassion for them that you start making excuses for them. Right? And you start tiptoeing around the behavior because you've read 10 books about it, and they're just doing their deactivating thing, and if I can just bend over backwards to cater to their needs in this difficult time, then maybe we'll get through it, and maybe they'll love me again, and they'll see how patient and understanding I am and whatever. That is losing yourself.
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Right? Because it's really important to recognize that in all of this, like, you're there too, and you do have needs, and recognizing, yes, don't take it personally, and it is okay to be affected by this, and it's okay to advocate for yourself, and be clear about what you can tolerate and what you can't tolerate. And if someone's being rude to you, if they're all of a sudden being very flaky and non committal, you don't have to just stick that out. You don't have to just be fine with that because it's part of their insecurity. If anything, I think being really clear in what your boundaries and your limits and your expectations are and communicating those, not from a place of desperation and, please, you can't do this to me. You can't it's not fair. And last week, you were being this, and now what's wrong? What did I do? If you're coming at it from a panicked place, you will just reinforce to them that all of the things they fear about relationships, woah, this person is too intense, this person is too much, this person is too needy, I knew it, I do need to retreat back to safety. If you can communicate, you know, what you're able to tolerate, what's acceptable to you, what isn't, what you need, what you're looking for, if you can communicate that from a really grounded place that is genuinely self advocating in the sense that, like, I am okay to let this relationship go if we want different things, and that's really the ticket. And I know that's hard because it might not feel true for anxiously attached people.
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Oftentimes, you're not willing to let the relationship go, and that's really where you start the self abandonment process, right? You want the relationship itself more than you care about being able to feel safe in it, and so you hold on for dear life, even if and when it's so clearly not going to work for you in that form. So you've really got to get to that place, and it might be a matter of faking it till you make it. Get to that place where you can say, if you are not able to show up in this way, if you're not able to be consistent and reliable, and if you're kind of blocking me out of your life, then that's not going to work for me. And that's okay, but maybe we just want different things. And being able to kind of stand firmly planted in that self advocacy is really important, and I would argue is much more likely to get them to actually engage, and is more likely to shake them out of their funk than if you chase them, or if you cower and turn yourself into a tiny little mouse so as to not trigger them more. Either of those strategies is likely to reinforce all of their stuff in a way that will drive them further away. So get really clear around like where your limits are, what you can tolerate, what the relationship would need to look like in order for it to work for you, and then go forth and confidently advocate. And as I said, that might be a little bit of faking it till you make it, and that's okay.
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It's not about being a dictator, it's not about telling them what they can and can't do, and how dare they, and getting really righteous and indignant. It's just about going, what do I need, and can I communicate that from a place of, here's what I'm looking for, and if that's what you're also looking for, then great? Let's continue walking down this path with some clear guidelines and frameworks on how we're going to do things and how we're not going to do things, in order that we can both feel safe and respected. But if that's not what you want, and I'm getting the sense from your behavior that that's maybe not what you're looking for, then that's okay as well, but please just let me know, so that we're not wasting each other's time. You can probably feel even from hearing me say that, that the energy is totally different, and it's an energy that is much more likely to garner engagement and respect from someone than the energy of panic and desperation, which I think is where a lot of anxious people go by default. So in addition to that, a couple of other things that you can do if you're on the receiving end of this and you're having a hard time I think the self advocacy piece is really key. But other things you can do, try not to become so obsessed with the relationship that you're it's all you're thinking about, and you're just obsessing over it and totally fixated. Again, I think that's where we go by default if we have anxious attachment patterns, but it's the last thing you need. So really make sure that you're planning stuff with friends and taking that opportunity to nourish yourself, nurture yourself, do the things that support you to feel well and good.
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Go to therapy, do whatever you need to do, so that you're not like 100% all eggs in the basket of this person who is pulling away and leaving you feeling really stressed and strung out. That's not going to help the cause. And another thing that you can do, rather than making the relationship this really serious place of, like, we need to have a talk and it always feeling very heavy, try and intersperse like, again, I do think it's important to have the conversations, but try and intersperse it with connective things that are not serious in nature. That will generally be well received by someone with more avoidant patterns because for them, having to sit down and have, like, serious emotional conversations is going to be a source of dread more than it is something that they'll look forward to and feel relief from. So doing things that are quality time, let's go on a hike together, or do a cooking class, or something that feels like a fun activity that is light hearted, that doesn't have to be bogged down with all of the serious emotional stuff, that might be a nice way to feel connected with them, and for them to feel connected with you and be reminded of all of the great things about being in a relationship without the the baggage, so to speak, of all of the other stuff that can freak them out, for want of a better term. So that is a nice thing to intersperse with the other stuff, which is more directly asking for what you need. Make sure that you're not letting the whole relational field be bogged down with serious heavy stuff because, as I said, that will almost certainly cement their perception that the relationship is asking too much of them, and that will lead to further deactivation. So try and create some balance there and inject some lightness into the relationship rather than having it feel heavy all the time.
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I should also say that I did a previous episode a while ago titled, What to do when a partner pulls away or an avoidant partner pulls away. In that episode, I speak more to the dynamics in an established relationship. I realize in this episode, I focus more on kind of early stage relationship, but if you are looking for more on this and you're in an established relationship, a long term relationship, and your partner is going through periods of pulling away, definitely go check out that other episode because that will speak to that experience and give you some tools and tips for that. So I'm gonna stop there because this is getting long, but I hope that's been helpful. As always, so grateful for those of you who leave feedback and reviews, kind words, YouTube comments, a little reminder that these episodes are all on YouTube for anyone who likes to watch there. But otherwise, I look forward to seeing you all next week. Thanks, guys.
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Thanks for joining me for this episode of On Attachment. If you wanna go deeper on all things attachment, love, and relationships, you can find me on Instagram @stephanie__rigg or at stephanierigg.com. And if you enjoyed this episode, I'd be so grateful if you could leave a review and a 5 star rating. It really does help so much. Thanks again for being here, and I hope to see you again soon.
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