How to Leave a Relationship (When You Know You Need To)
In this episode, we're talking about how to leave a relationship from the perspective of knowing that you need to. Break-ups are hard - no matter the circumstances - and most of the advice tends to be directed toward people who've been broken up with, rather than those doing the breaking up.
WHAT WE COVER:
why waiting for the "right time" is an illusion
how to support yourself as you prepare for a break-up
grappling with guilt around hurting someone
how to cultivate healthy boundaries throughout the break-up
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Episode Transcript
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You're listening to On Attachment, a place to learn about how attachment shapes the way we experience relationships and where you'll gain the guidance, knowledge and practical tools to overcome insecurity and build healthy, thriving relationships. I'm your host, relationship coach Stephanie Rigg and I'm really glad you're here.
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Hey, everybody. Welcome back to another episode of On Attachment. Today's episode is how to leave a relationship when you know you need to. So this was a question that I got from someone in my community. And as much as it's a big conversation, it's a messy conversation, and it's a conversation that's going to have a huge number of variables that are obviously very personal.
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I think it's also a really important conversation, and it's one that I know when I was in this situation a few years ago, I really could have used some guidance on this because I know I felt very alone and very confused and very overwhelmed by knowing that I needed to do this thing, but not knowing how I was actually going to do it. And that can be really paralysing. And I think we can get really stuck there and really just the whole thing gets very drawn out and can be longer and more painful than it needs to be. Because maybe we don't trust ourselves. Maybe we don't trust in our own resilience, in our capacity to navigate difficult things.
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Or we just feel so overwhelmed by the task ahead and the road ahead that we shrink and we freeze and we don't actually do the thing we know we need to do. So I'm hoping that in today's conversation, while there will be a lot of caveats and a lot of reminders that this is not universal advice and it's not going to be a one size fits all thing, and it's certainly not a prescriptive blueprint for the steps you need to take in every situation. I'm hoping that what we'll discuss will give you some guidance and some reassurance and some support if this is a situation that you're in or someone in your life is in, and you're in need of a little bit of help along the way, so that's what we're going to be talking about. Before I dive into that, a couple of quick announcements. Just a reminder that I'm now accepting applications for my Homecoming Mastermind programme.
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And I think that, as in all cases, there is a level of depth and resonance that we get from hearing something from someone who's experienced it and feeling that sense of deep knowing of what the thing feels like, rather than just what it looks like on the outside. So I'm so glad that you've had that experience and that it's helping you on your way to doing the work and growing into a more secure version of yourself. So thank you for the kind words and if you want to send an email to podcast@stephanierigg.com, my team will set you up with free access to one of my master classes. Okay, right, let's get into this. Let's talk how to leave a relationship when you know you need to.
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Okay, so I think it's important to acknowledge at the outset that oftentimes we do have this period when a relationship is coming to an end. It's rare that we have a light bulb moment of going, oh, I know, I need to leave, and then we blurt it out to our partner and that's the end of it. We pack our bags and off we go. Very rarely is it that quick and clean and neat and certain. I think it would be fair to say that in many cases, the majority of cases, there is a period preceding the breakup where one or both people are feeling like they know it's coming.
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And maybe that period is characterised by a gradual kind of disentangling, disconnecting disengaging from the connection and the intimacy in a way that feels almost like a fade out or a slow burn. And I think that while that can be carried out in better ways and worse ways, I don't know that it's necessarily a problem to be solved. I think it's just something to acknowledge that oftentimes going through that process is a protective mechanism. That means that by the time we get to the breakup, we've already come to terms with it to some degree emotionally. We've started to do the emotional processing and the grieving before we've actually pulled the trigger on ending the relationship.
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With that being said, I think that for people who are in this situation of knowing they need to leave, but maybe feeling like they don't know how to leave or they feel so overwhelmed by the how, even if you've started to do the emotional disentangling and the emotional disengaging, there can be so many layers of overwhelm and stress and anxiety and worry and doubt and guilt and all of these other things that make this a really sticky place to be. So if you are in that situation, I really just want to acknowledge that and say, I've been there and I know how hard it is for context. I was in a relationship for three and a half years that I think I pretty much knew I needed to end it and leave from the day I got into the relationship. It was really never healthy, and a part of me really knew that. But I was so attached to trying and trying to fix it and trying to change it and trying to change him that it took me that long to actually come to terms with it and ultimately make a plan and pull the trigger and leave.
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So I've been there and I get that it's hard and it's messy. So maybe the first piece of advice is just be really kind to yourself and give yourself a lot of grace because this is not an easy situation to be in. I do also want to say at the outset, and this is an important caveat to our conversation, I am not speaking about abusive situations here. And if you are in that situation, I really encourage you to seek out support, seek out help. I'm really speaking to people who are in a broadly safe relationship, but one that they know they need to leave.
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Okay, so let's dive into these tips for the how of leaving a relationship when you know you need to. The first piece of advice that I want to offer you is there'll probably never be a great time to do this. And maybe that's not very encouraging advice, but I think it's honest advice. Life is messy, life is complicated, life is busy. Again, I know for me that there were so many reasons to just delay on doing this thing, right.
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It was, oh, we've got that holiday booked, or oh, there's this other social event coming up, or Ridiculous things, right? In hindsight, when it was me knowing I was going to end the relationships or what does it matter if we have a social event next month? That it's amazing what our brain will do and cling to as a reason not to do an uncomfortable thing. I think making our peace with the fact that any time is not going to be a great time or it's not necessarily going to be a better time than now. And again, that doesn't mean that you have to do it today, but not continuing to delay or reaching for kind of silly, trivial reasons as to why now isn't a good time, but later will be, because when it gets round to being later, there'll be another reason why then isn't a good time either.
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So I think that starting to make the decision that you're going to do this imminently. Again, this is for people who've already made the decision that they want to do it. So I just want to keep reminding people of that, but decide, okay, this is what I'm doing. Not like, oh yeah, I know I need to do that at some point. It's like, no, this is what I'm doing.
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And then we move to the next piece of advice, which is make a plan. Okay? When your system is in a state of overwhelm and feeling a lot of stress. So very quick nervous system 101. And if you've listened to other podcast episodes that done my courses on this, you'll know what I'm talking about.
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When we're in our sympathetic nervous system and we're in that energy of fight or flight and we're anxious and we're stressed and there's a lot of mobilisation energy, it's like, okay, I need to do something. If we get to a point where that gets too much, then we can go into this overwhelmed place. So either that can take us into total shutdown into our dorsal vagal complex, or we might go into a freeze response, which is a mix of both. So it's like, I have all of this stuff to do, but I can't do anything because I'm so overwhelmed. And so we end up really stuck.
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And I know for me, when I was in this situation, I would just bounce between those all the time. I was either really actively stressed about it or just in total overwhelm and immobilised and I didn't know where to begin. So I just did nothing for months and months and years and years. Right? So now in hindsight and I worked with my therapist at the time about this, it was like, your nervous system needs a plan.
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Okay? So it's like, okay, where am I going to go? That was an important plan for me because my partner and I lived together. It's like there was no way my body and my nervous system was ever going to feel safe in saying, I'm leaving if I didn't know where I was going to go. So I made a plan on where I was going to go.
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And that, again, took time and took some preparation. And depending on the circumstances you're in, depending on whether you have family or friends that you could go and stay with. Depending on your financial position, you might need to give yourself a bit of lead time to get to the point where you have a solid actionable plan or if you have your own place, obviously this would be easier or if your partner would be the one to move out, this would be easier. But make a plan that speaks to whatever situation you're in that allows your nervous system to feel a bit more supported and comforted. Because if it's just this experience of stepping out into the void of saying like, I think we need to break up and I have no idea what my life looks like on the other side of that.
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For a lot of people, that is going to be too overwhelming and too much and it's going to throw you into that kind of frozen, immobilised response where you aren't able to act and you aren't really able to make decisions or support yourself. So for a lot of people having some sort of plan in place, even if it's a transitional plan, even if it's just what will I do for the first month or something like that? How will I support myself? That is going to be really helpful in giving you greater clarity and confidence that you will be okay, that you're not stepping off the ledge and into the unknown and into the void. That leads nicely into my next piece of advice, which is seek out the support of people who you trust, who love you and care about you.
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So again, to use myself as an example, I am someone who is not very good at letting people in on the problem until I've solved it. So for me it was like, okay, I'll tell my friends and family that I'm thinking of leaving this relationship, but only once I've figured out all the answers and made sure that everything's fine. And that is a big part of my work, is allowing myself to be supported by people. And I suspect that if you're listening, I know that many of my listeners are very much like me in many ways and can relate to a lot of the things that I have struggled with and have experienced. So if you are someone who tends to put on a brave face and you're used to supporting others, but you're not used to really letting people see you and your vulnerability, you're not used to asking for and receiving support or help, maybe you don't want to be a burden.
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Maybe you don't want the attention. Maybe you are worried to let them in on something like leaving your relationship. I know for me part of it was I don't want to tell my family and friends that this is where I'm at and what I'm thinking of doing because what if I change my mind? And then that's really uncomfortable for me that they know that about my situation. And then all of these things, right, that we just can get ourselves really stuck in and block ourselves from seeking and receiving the support that we really do know we need.
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And for me, it was only in finally taking that step of opening up and being vulnerable and sharing with people where I was at and what I was thinking and what I was needing that I was able to get that support. And ultimately sharing, that was a big part of being able to make a proper plan because my ability to plan out my next move on my own was really inhibited. So in letting people in, in letting people support me, that also really helped me with making a plan that I felt safe and comfortable with. So the next piece of advice is a hard one, but prepare yourself for the fact that your partner may be really upset and that's okay. I think a lot of the time it will depend so much on the tone of the relationship and a million other factors.
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But part of our resistance to pulling the trigger is the guilt and the fear about the other person not being okay and feeling like we are the cause of their sadness or their sense of grief and loss. And we don't know how to hold that guilt. We don't know how to hold that sense of responsibility for someone else's big emotions. And so we don't do it. We prioritise their emotions and their desires and their well being above what we know we need to do for ourselves.
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And while that's again very understandable and something I've grappled with myself and I know a lot of other people do, the reality is that breakups suck and they're sad and it sucks to be broken up with. And that's a really, really bad reason to stay with someone both for you and for them. If it were you, you wouldn't want someone to stay with you just so you weren't upset about it. So I think we have to, of course, conduct ourselves with respect and care and kindness in dealing with our partner as we move through that process and always trying to behave with integrity. But we can't take responsibility for making sure that they are okay and that they're not upset and that they're not hurt and all of that, right?
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We can't be their emotional support person through the breakup. So preparing yourself for the fact that they may well be really upset, they may well plead with you and beg you and whatever else, but that's not on you. You can explain to them where you're at. You can be loving and kind and you can hold the boundary. That leads me to my last piece of advice, which is boundaries, right?
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This is a broader piece. You will really need strong boundaries in that process throughout and post breakup. And again, this is hard if you've not got great boundaries as a starting point, if that's still a growth edge for you. But please know, I mean, I get questions from people all the time, like what do I do? My ex keeps asking me to talk or My ex isn't accepting the breakup or any number of other things.
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And the answer is always boundaries, right? You're not beholden to someone just because they want something from you or they're upset with you or angry at you or demanding this of you. I know it's really uncomfortable, particularly if it's someone that we care about, but that can't be the deciding factor in what you do with your life. And so having really clear strong boundaries, whether that's saying to someone, I would really appreciate if you'd stop messaging me, or I don't want us to talk for the next X period of time while we're figuring this out. Or to the extent that you do need to talk about logistical things, really keeping it to that, but putting a clear line in place around going into the trenches of dredging everything up emotionally, whatever it is.
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But you need to get clear around what boundaries need to be in place in order for this to be sustainable for you, in order for you to feel clear and confident in the decision that you've made and really support yourself through that. Because that is your number one job through the breakup and beyond, is to support yourself first. Your job is not to be the emotional support person to your partner or your ex partner at some future point in time. And again, that might be a real paradigm shift for you if you are used to being the caretaker of someone else and their emotions and their feelings and making sure everyone else is okay. But this period is not about them, it's about you.
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And they need to part of that healing process and that breathing process and that disentangling is that you need to resource yourselves separately and you need to seek support from other people and they need to seek support from other people rather than continuing to play that role for each other because that's just confusing and tends to extend all of the grief and the pain. So I hope that that's been helpful. A final word. This is challenging. As I've said multiple times in this episode, it's a hard situation to be in.
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But I think the overarching piece of advice is just trust yourself. Trust in your decision if that's the decision you've made, trust that there's a part of you that knows what you need and what you need to do and trust that you'll be okay. Trust in your own resilience. Trust that you are so strong and capable and that you have a beautiful life ahead of you. And that if this is the point you've gotten to and this is the decision you made, that you will be okay and you'll be better than okay.
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And that the road ahead is really bright and limitless in terms of the possibilities. So as much as it can feel like you're looking down a dark tunnel and everything is uncertain and unclear, and there's a lot of fear and doubt, as much as possible, trust that you are strong and capable and you will get through this. So I hope that that's been helpful. If you're in that situation, I'm sending you so much love. If someone in your life is in this situation and you think this episode could be helpful to them, please do share it.
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But otherwise, I look forward to seeing you later in the week. Thanks, guys.
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Thanks for joining me for this episode of On Attachment. If you want to go deeper on all things attachment, love and relationships, you can find me on Instagram @stephanie__rigg or at stephanierigg.com. And if you enjoyed this episode, I'd be so grateful if you could leave a review and a five star rating. It really does help so much. Thanks again for being here, and I hope to see you again soon.